I'm throwing in the towel, I have 47597 words and need to play video games to blank my mind enough to think of a proper ending. 

So the fic I'm writing, it's a Good Omens fic for Nanorimo, and heaven wins, the apocalypse comes to pass, it's not a great time (until it gets better). 

Jesus is a minor character.

And I'm just trying to characterize this guy, and I can't figure out if I'm supposed to be writing him from the Jewish perspective (because Neil Gaiman is Jewish and Terry Pratchett was an atheist) or the Christian one (because this is very Book of Revelation heavy), and also I know that whichever one I choose, I'm gonna be executing it wrong.  

Well, I've got about a chapter of buffer before I need to figure this out. 

Someone is leaving comments on every chapter of every story I've written and I just feel so appreciative and vindicated and happy about it! 

And other commentators have picked up on my eleventh-hour plot twist and normally I'd feel nervous about it but this one is, like, a bonus plot twist that needs to be heavily foreshadowed to work properly, and Meghan Whalen Turner is still my authorial idol, so those comments make me happy too! 

All the comments make me happy! 

Oh and the office is giving us a $500 home-office expense allowance for equipment so I'll finally get the monitor arms I wanted! Twin arms are OK but my setup is such that I think two single arms would work better. 

Last night I dreamed I was in high school again, but it was the fun kinda dream, not the type where you dream you have a test you haven't studied for, or homework you haven't done. It was a school trip of some sort, and I just felt really warm and fuzzy surrounded by so many people that I knew and liked, people that I hadn't seen in nearly ten years, people that I'll very likely never see again. So warm and fuzzy was the dream that when I woke up I was filled with a sense of having lost it all anew. I'm happier and more creatively fulfilled than I've ever been but my mind often drifts backwards into the past and I just think about all the experiences and people and memories that have fallen away over the years. 

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According to this twitter thread, there is no “favorite” on folklore rather it is “what baggage do you have." So in this post I'll be going through my favourite songs on folklore and examining my personal baggage. 

the last great american dynasty: you have a tendency to daydream and raise expectations way too much, it gets to a point where everyday life becomes disappointing

I actually don't relate to this song at all, I like the song for it's little third-act stinger.  

exile ft. bon iver: either you personally experienced or your parents had a very bad/toxic relationship

Ha ha ha so exile is my favourite song on folklore, and I was 100% Justin Vernon's part in this song, who shall henceforth be Justin #4 after Potato Justin, Prime Minister Justin, and Orc Druid Justin.

this is me trying: you’re obviously going through it and i hope you get to where you want to be... i believe in you

I'm doin fine actually, my 4 biggest problems right now are: 
- my mom threw out my old fashion magazines from 2005 when I was away
- I had a mosquito bite on one eyelid that made it hard to see
- I thought that my 3rd fanfic was sort of rubbish but I just reread the 12 chapters I already posted and it's not actually that bad, I can still pull it off 
- do I want to take a stat increase or a feat on my Polearm Master Vengeance Paladin when she hits level 4? 
So yes I suppose my denial sounds pretty defensive but I'm fine

ephipany: you’ve most likely lost someone very important in your life, probs healed by now but you still miss them intensely every now and then

I like this song because it sounds pretty but yes this is also 100% true

betty: you’re gay... is there more to say i don’t think so

Yeah, as a bi person this checks out  

I've been online shopping a lot. Mostly for silk tops and dresses, for the day they let us back into the office lol (which isn't happening until at least next year). But silk is really beautiful and breathable and I kind of love it :/

One of them is a McQueen dragonfly dress. I don't have a problem. 



And a silk DVF wrap

I might have a problem. There's been this big honkin gold ring that I've wanted since last year. I told myself that I'd buy it once I passed my ethics exam. Which I did. And I bought it. It feels weird to be walking around with a hunk of metal on my finger that costs more than my PC. I'll get used to it. 

Last night there was a power outage. My Aquaclear 30 HOB filter drained out during the outage, and it's not self priming. So it burned itself out running dry. I replaced it with an Eheim 2211. It's called the "cadillac of filters." But cadillacs aren't german-engineered, with instructions that don't tell you how to place TWO CRUCIAL VALVES on the assembly! I spent three hours setting that puppy up. On the plus side the Eheim is self-priming so my aquarium should be OK during power surges now. 



In other news I have mad writer's block. It is real bad. 

 Sooo I'm proactively beating jet lag to Japan by doing an all-nighter today, in theory so I can sleep half the way to Japan, wake up over the Pacific, and then be perfectly refreshed for dinner. I'd like to think that this is what I've been abstaining from coffee for - so that I can pound back mugs of yin yeung until 7AM while maximizing effect, and minimizing the bit where my heart has a pizza party. Once, I had an extra large coffee from Tim's and felt like I was gonna die for a whole lecture. Another time, I had coffee en route to Kingston, and where I got massage, and couldn't enjoy it properly because of the caffeine. 

Still working on writing chapters 8-9 for beta. This is the bit where I could write good sex scenes. Then I watched this video and realized that the choreography has to mean something in terms of character development. But now it's just... not as nice and fluffy as I thought it was gonna be. Which is fine I guess. But last chapter Shivani said that Az was being sort of harsh in one of his comments and I don't know if she'll like the new power dynamics. 

It'll be at least 40k before it's all done. Chapters 3 and 4 are out for beta. 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20428025 

To do: 
one incomplete sex scene. I feel so awkward asking my friends to beta but it's got to be done
rewrite one subplot about what the big bad is doing while the protagonist is trapped in the time loop
revise exposition dump in first scene
expand most scenes somewhat, clear up awkward transitions, remove placeholder text, etc.  

 22k, and almost done the epilogue. 

Will go back soon to 'unpack' some verbs later. 

My goal is to write a story longer than my thesis, and get more hits on it than on my thesis. Excluding tables, figures, appendices, and such, it clocked in at about 23k words. 

Finished up with 18k words today and I thought of a new plot point to wrap up the third act today. Also got a beta. I hope they like it and that this isn't complete dross.