I dropped the course. My supervisors said that it wouldn't kill me to drop it. Sami told me to drop the course so that I would whine less. Even Shivani told me to drop it-

me: i feel soft
her: This isn't a soft move, it's a smart one
me: this other dude who graduated with a lower GPA than me is taking the same combination of courses and not dropping it
her: Meh, he's already inferior
me: harsh, bro
her: I know, I'm a bad, bad person

I feel better now about not having to pick up a scripting language and write a 12-page report in two weeks. It's too late to audit the course but since the lectures are already half over I might as well keep showing up.

But seriously I don't know why I'm getting soft. Today I shuffled through my mail for my NSLSC loan number and nearly panicked. Nothing was wrong. But every setback fills me with dread and I don't know why my ability to handle things has evaporated. Maybe it's a relationship thing. My competence levels probably drop 30% whenever I'm in a relationship. I can't think of anything else that's changed between this time last year and right now. Last year my google calendar was a Piet Mondrian painting. Admittedly I had a lot more breakdowns then but those were breakup-related. This February I had at least six small nervous breakdowns, all work-related, and no amount of country music can fix that.

Anyways on Saturday I went to MEC and now I am the proud temporary owner of one nylon sling, one really big carabiner, and two smaller carabiners. I "found" an urban earthcache, rather than a regular one, because my GPS is 80km away as the crow flies, to get the leap year badge.

Justin is currently in China visiting his dad's factory. Every dude I've ever dated has a somewhat absentee dad.

Today I washed my hair, tried to do the problem set for Development, and emailed 3 questions to the TA. Someone must have shat in the TA's coffee because I haven't seen such harsh marking since Hydrology. He didn't like my # signs or @ symbols.

Then I played the MQE... can't believe I've never played the MQE before, he's great as long as the map has enough grenades, and you're not playing with some other grenadier class.

I suppose I should go to sleep now. I left my notes for Freight in my office and I need to get them before the 9AM lecture.