I met J's mum, aunt, and brother today. We were cleaning out his mum's house because it had just been sold. I came away from that with two cans of compressed air, four jars of fruit/veg preserves, and a vaccuum packed bag of dessert squares.

Anyways yeah, it went really well! Except where I was going up the ladder to the roof, and there was a huge spider near the top rung so I noped back down.

It feels kind of early to meet his mum though. Like if you're pregnant you're not supposed to tell anyone until after the 1st trimester in case you spontaneously miscarry, or like you're not supposed to buy the engineering leather jacket until after your 2B term in case you fail and your graduating year changes...

But because I met his mum I had to tell my mum, and she unsurprisingly disapproves of his academic credentials.

And I feel guilty because so do I. But they're equivalent to what my dad has, and J's only other apparent flaw seems to be that his style of speech in online chat is really annoying. I can't quite put a finger on it but it's probably a combination of smilies and unfunny, irrelevant jokes. If I wanted a laugh I'd watch cats do cat things.

Also I've been SERIOUSLY thinking about the fortune teller in Baltimore in 2010.



In case you can't read this it's something about needing to talk to my parents more, cook and clean, have fun, try teaching and art, etc. Also I'd meet a guy with a PhD when I was 23. And "California will say yes." I don't know if that's a prompt to apply for Caltech or work as a Google janitor or something.

Yeah but with the PhD thing... god it's driving me mad. J is an ISTP and that's nice, I like his focus and passions and straightforwardness. But sometimes I find him too straightforward and linear - i.e. not a particularly challenging person. It's hard to pinpoint and harder to say that one doesn't want to be in a relationship because of something like that. "You're not as intuitive a thinker as I am" well how many people are? And thinking in leaps and bounds can be a handicap sometimes too. J's uprightness makes me feel safe and structured. Like, really safe. I think an intuitive thinker would have judged me quickly and brutally, and then not tell me why, and expect me to instinctively know what why they reacted that way.

I'm aware that it's silly to put so much trust in a $5 palm reading, yet I do anyways...