On the way home last night I picked up a copy Now Toronto because they had a gift guide and restaurant reviews. Then I discovered Dan Savage's column (December 2nd, 2015) at the back, behind the escort ads:

I'm a 37-year-old straight male in a relationship with a slightly older woman. I have a GGG girlfriend and I am completely GGG - until we talk about having a MMF threesome. We have great sex and have experimented together. We tried playing with a couple to give her the "two-dick experience" she wanted, but the other man was of "average" size and she was not into it. I'm of average stature, and she made such a fuss of having someone extra-large join in that it threw my hang-up about my size into overdrive. It's paralyzed me sexually. I'm afraid she'll leave me or run off looking to fulfill her need on her own.

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If leaving you is the only way this woman can ever experience an above-average cock again, ANGST, then she might leave you. Depending on how important sitting on an above-average cock now and then is to her, your insecurities may create an incentive for her to leave you or cheat on you. But if she can have you and all the good times and the great GGG sex you two have together - if she can continue to enjoy your cock and the things it and you can do for her along with the occasional ride on an above-average cock - then you've created a massive incentive for her to stay.

As we can remember the last time I did this it turned out into November 18th, 2015. Oh, Mr. Savage, where were you eleven months ago? Also I think that she's fussing too hard about wanting the XLD and ANGST shouldn't have to put up with that if he doesn't want to. But neither the XLD nor ANGST is the point of this post.

I feel a little bit guilty because Justin's apparent lack of jealousy is, indeed, an "incentive ... to stay," but sometimes I wonder if I'm walking through a dream or something and one day I'll wake up with a starved, rabid cat chewing my face off. My god, is that selfish? More or less selfish than if "owns a lot of pans and uses them all" is an incentive? More or less than having "stabilizing elements of personality"? How does it compare to "willing to go geocaching" and "giant nerd" and "doesn't want sprogs"? Is that selfish?

Reading that column gives me the same nervous feeling as when I watched Liver. Rachel accused Lacey of choosing to sleep with Andrew, because, to paraphrase, a 45-year-old man will look at you like an angel whereas a twenty-something-year-old guy won't, becasue a twenty-something guy is surrounded by lots of other twenty-something girls.

Which isn't necessarily true, I've come to realize. It's more an issue of scarcity and stuff, everyone should be appreciated and appreciative regardless of age, and age is not necessarily correlated to decreased demand, but it stung when I first heard it and I think I still feel vulnerable about it now, as I feel about ANGST's woman's "incentive for her to stay." But I am doing my best to stop it from turning into the November 18th, 2015 column, or in other words, late 2014 for me, because that was a bad, bad time, where I tried and just couldn't be, as ANGST calls it, GGG for Charles and Julie... or, really, early 2013 for Charles.

To conclude, things are going so well that it feels unethical.

Oh! We finally delivered the Yonge/Dundas Cineplex presentation. It went really well, even though I barely rehearsed, because Ying made good slides and we'd been working on the meat of the project forever. I'm glad we went before Greg and Paula because their model of Scotiabank Theatre was a lot more impressive looking than ours. Holy shit, they managed to get their concession stands in, and some really nice curves in the model geometry, whereas in ours I cut off analysis at the ticket check-in gate, and made an octagon and called it a circle.